I’m not going to lie . .
I still think of you often . .
I still miss you..well the you I used to know … .
Now you’re just this beautiful woman I “sort of” know . .
All I have are a couple materials and the memories.
I wish to create more or to at least relive them . .
My favorite memory was when I first saw you at your dad’s.
I loved how you surprisingly jumped into my arms.
I so wish for that again . .
Thinking of that, well any memory of you, brings a smirk to my face … …
Yet . . it’s quickly followed by the painful fact of not having you anymore . .
My biggest regret was so stupidly letting you go the first time … .
I greatly hate myself for that . .
I beat myself up for that so much … …
I don’t know what it is, karma for me letting you go?
If so, I guess it’s fair … .
I’m sorry if this bothers you that I still care so much . .
I thought things would’ve changed for the better since I’m closer.
For a little while there it seemed like things were turning around . .
Guess I was wrong … .
They say you’ll never forget your first love.
I know I wont but . . will you?
I feel you already have … …
I guess as long as you’re happy then I’m glad for you.
I will keep my pain behind this smile and support you if you ever need me to.